day nine.

hey there! happy tuesday!  i’m currently on day 9 of the Advocare 24 Day Challenge!  i haven’t taken any official measurements, but so far i’ve lost 7 lbs.  what i love is that i already feel a lot lighter, not just like i lost some water weight.

i’ve kept my meals pretty simple, since i’m trying to cut out everything processed for the challenge.  i wanted this to be a complete overhaul on my body and mind, and i feel like i’m really getting to where i want to be with these products.  i’ll post a complete write-up of the cleanse phase once i’m done. tomorrow is the last day!

i’ve read some different stories about what to eat while completing the burn phase. some look like they incorporate some carb-cycling, while others look like the cleanse phase [protein + veggies + complex carbs].  i may try the carb-cycling approach because i’ve wanted to try it and its only 14 days, i think i can manage 🙂

three new things i’m excited about:

1. trying out this sleep works by Advocare.  it should be coming in tomorrow!  the reason i’m excited is because recently, i’ll lay in bed and my thoughts wont shut off; i also don’t sleep well once i get to sleep because i’m worried i’m either going to sleep through my alarm clock or i have terrible dreams that keep me awake.

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2. this cookies & cream protein by Beverly International.  i’m all out of my chocolate protein, and i’ve never ventured out on flavors, so this will be a new protein experience for me all around.  plus, it’s a casein/whey mixture, and i’ve never tried casein protein, so i’m excited.  (who am i? getting excited over protein purchases?)

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3. this headband from LP3.  i found them fumbling around on instagram one day and fell in love with the headbands! i got the granite rose, but i cant wait to stock up on the rest of the colors! there’s so many to choose from!Capture2

that’s it for today!  i’m excited to share my final results of the cleanse phase on thursday or friday!  i’ll leave you with a picture of my sweet boy 🙂

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Q: any new purchases for you recently that you’re excited to try out for the first time?

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motivation monday

hey guys!  just checking in to let you know i’m still going strong! i’m on day 8 of the cleanse; only 2 cleanse days left, then it’s time for the BURN PHASE!

i had a great weekend [eats + workouts] but i’ll get into that tomorrow.  today, i just want to leave you with a little motivation.

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it’s true.  i NEVER regret a workout, but, if i oversleep/skip an afternoon workout, i’m so mad at myself. plus, i feel SO MUCH BETTER when i workout in the morning vs. sleep a few hours more.  it doesn’t make sense, but that’s what happens!

hope y’all had a great weekend!

Q: are you a morning or afternoon workout type of person?  me, i’m morning all the way.  my job mentally drains me, so that last thing i want to do when i get off work, is workout.  plus, if i workout in the morning, it leaves SO much more time in the afternoon to do stuff.. like snuggle this guy:

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i have been a combination of all those things at some point this week.  its been my first week back into the gym, consistently, for quite some time.  i’m lifting and lifting heavy, because i want to challenge myself.  i’m sore in places i forgot i had. i’m tired, too.  my alarm clock goes off at 4:15 a.m. and by lunch time, i’m feeling it.  my body is tired, my mind is tired, I’M TIRED.

but.. i know this will be worth it.  i’m not wishing for all my dreams to come true at the end of this challenge.  i know i’m a work in progress and it’s going to take TIME. and STRENGTH. and WILLPOWER.  i don’t expect abs, or even a flat stomach.  what i’m hoping for is to find the motivation i lost somewhere along the way.

this time two years ago, i was just starting body-for-life, with the help of Janetha.  about two months after that, i was down over 30 lbs and really feeling great.  i haven’t been on a strict meal plan or workout regime since then.  not saying i completely gave up.. but i would binge, then realize i needed to snap back; i’d  go to some body pump classes, do some zumba at home, clean up my eats, but i never really found that motivation again. i got stressed out from buying a house and ate junk to make myself feel better, only i felt ten times worse.

my weight spiraled out of control and i woke up one morning the highest weight i had ever seen.  a number so high, it literally makes me sick to my stomach.  in december 2012 i woke up one day and decided to weigh myself (because when i’m not on track, i’d rather not see the number climb) and i weighed in at 303 pounds. ugh, there are tears in my eyes typing out that number. how did this happen?  how did i LET this happen??  the calories didn’t jump down my throat.. i stuffed them down there. i wasn’t overeating while i was at work, because i would pack a sensible breakfast and lunch; but i got tired of cooking, so, fast food for dinner it was. or a pre-made pizza. or hamburger helper. or pasta with more pasta.  i was having seconds for dinner; not small-just-two-more-bites seconds, more like the-same-size-as-my-first plate seconds. i was also eating a pint of ice cream for dessert more than 3 times a week; and there was always something sweet in the house because i now had the worst sweet tooth i’ve ever had.

i took matters into my own hands and decided if i couldn’t do this on my own, i didn’t want to wait a minute longer to help.  i saw a doctor and was enrolled for the LAP-BAND surgery in feb 2013.  actually, feb 14, 2013 to be exact.  i have not had the surgery yet, because i have to complete a 12-month coaching program through my insurance company to make sure i’m prepared for surgery (and that my insurance will pay for it).  announcing this to someone other than close friends and family makes me feel like a failure.  i thought i could do this on my own. i WANTED TO do this on my own.  my dad offered me this surgery multiple times in high school and college and i refused.  but i look at my parents and see that they’re still doing the same thing i am (yo-yo’ing), only they’re 30 years older.  i don’t want to wake up at age 50 and still have things on the back burner ‘waiting to lose weight’ before i do them.

i know this wont be the answer to all my prayers, but it will hopefully be the tool i need to make this thing work for me.  please don’t judge me, because, unless you’ve been in my shoes, you don’t know how this feels.  if everything works out as planned, i will be eligible for surgery feb 14, 2014.  if i can go in that day and have the surgery done, you bet i’ll be there.  this is why i’m currently trying to work on myself. i’m not going to show up to operating table 50 pounds heavier than i am now just because.  i want to lose as much weight as i can on my own, have the surgery, and continue right back to what i was doing.  i’m actually really excited.

so, this post took a crazy turn from what i had planned, but my brain just started pouring out thoughts and i can’t help they were all over the place.  this was the hardest decision i have ever made in my life, so i’m hoping to find some support to go along with it.  and i hope that everyone can see where i’m coming from and that i’m not just trying to take a magic pill and make all the fat go away.

sorry for such a heavy post on friday, but i needed this. i needed to get it out there so i can do everything i need to do to be successful.

i hope y’all have a great friday.

thursday confessional

you guys, i have a problem.. it’s not something i’m proud of and it usually determines my mood for the next several hours/days: when i start a diet/lifestyle change, i become OBSESSED with the scale.

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my routine?  wake up, go to the bathroom, weigh myself.  if i workout that morning, weigh myself after.  get to work, there’s a scale in the women’s bathroom, ‘i’ll just see if the scales say the same thing.  mine could be off“.  i get home after work and haven’t eating anything since my 3 o’clock snack, my stomach feels pretty empty, lets just check to see if the number is lower than(!!) or the same as it was this morning.  then, i make dinner and relax before it’s time to go to bed.  i’ll weigh myself before bed, but usually don’t take that number too seriously. 99.99% of the time, i have to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night from all the water i drink.. you bet i weight myself.

THAT’S SIX TIMES.  six times too many, i know.  it drives me crazy that i do it, but i just want to make sure i’m making progress.  i know it shouldn’t happen daily, and i also know my weight can fluctuate anywhere from 1-10 lbs in a day (that’s even with clean eating).

i want to work on this.  i want to be able to hop on the scale once a month (or even longer period of time) and just check-in;  see if i’m still on-track or if i need to buckle-down. and maybe one day, not even feel the need to see what the number is and go by how i feel.  i’m going to try to wean myself off, but i know its going to take time.  this has been a serious obsession for yearsssss now; i’d say probably 10+ years.

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i know i’ve ready plenty of posts with this same subject, but i would consider this my biggest flaw when it come to losing weight.  when that number stops dropping as fast as i think it should, the weight creeps back on soon after.  i can be eating SO WELL and doing my workouts PERFECTLY and if that scale doesn’t rub me the wrong way, it could change the entire outlook on my program.  if i want to be successful this time around, i’m going to have to work on this, which means i’m going to have to work on myself.

i’ll check in with updates to let you know how it’s going.

Q:  do you weigh yourself regularly?  do you refuse to weigh yourself?  does your mood depend on whether the number is what you think it should be?

late dinner

hey there! yesterday was day 2 down in the books, 22 to go.  okay, i might not keep doing that, cause it sounds a little discouraging.  but i feel great and don’t have many complaints right now.  this advocare 24 day challenge doesn’t seem like it’ll be too rough to stick with.

i switched yesterday up a little, moving the 2 hour portion of the workout to the afternoon, which meant ~45 mins of morning cardio.  i did Just Dance – Just Sweat and felt like i got a really good workout. my HRM told me i burned 380 calories, so i’m going to stick with that.  i seriously love this kind of cardio; i don’t feel like i’m working out at all, and the whole thing goes by really fast!

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you see that squiggly line up top?  the game incorporates different moves to lower/raise your heart rate.  i think that’s a really cool feature.

after cardio, i got ready for work and off i went!  my day was pretty much the same as day 1, with a few changes here and there.  here’s what it looked liked:

6:15 a.m. – catalyst + spark pre-workout

7:00 a.m. – fiber drink + protein shake (GNC Pro Performance chocolate) post-workout

10:00 a.m. – 1/3 cup of raw almonds + hardboiled egg w. mustard/hot sauce

1:00 p.m. – catalyst

1:30 p.m. – leftover stuffed peppers topped with frank’s hot sauce.

3:00 p.m. – edamame (already kind of bored with this)

insert 2 hours of weight training (chest) and cardio here.

8:45 p.m. – omegaplex + 4 oz. seared tuna steaks w. bragg’s liquid aminos* & wasabi and some roasted broccoli with nutritional yeast sprinkled on top.  (i’m really trying to keep dinner creative.  i know 24 days is a long time to be bored with bland, tasteless food.  so even if my snacks were lacking, this definitely made up for all of it!)

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9:30 p.m. – herbal cleanse tablets + protein shake which consisted of GNC Pro Performance chocolate protein, almond milk, and ice cubes.

daily water intake: 150 oz.

*can i please talk about these liquid aminos for a second?  i’ve never tried them before and i’m IN LOVE.  i’ve tried other products from this company with no complaints, but for some reason, i had never picked up this product.  i had pretty much stopped using soy sauce altogether because the taste was so salty i couldn’t stand it.  this is the perfect balance and still tastes like soy sauce.  i added some wasabi in there for an extra heat factor, and the combo was nothing short of amazing.

thoughts on the products?  same as day one.. the plan is easy to follow, the fiber drink isn’t the greatest, the cleanse wasn’t too harsh.

thoughts on my day? did you happen to notice the time dinner occurred? that’s SUPER late for me. here’s why it happened: i don’t get off work until about 5:15, so by the time i was changed and ready at the gym, it was around 5:45 and then i didn’t finish until 7:30.  then, i had to run to the grocery store and buy some stuff to make dinner for a co-worker (she’s undergoing chemotherapy right now, so we set up a ‘meal train’ and my food was due today).  by the time i got home and put everything away, it was 8:15.. my dinner was simple, throw it on the pan to roast or sear, but i also had to make BBQ chicken and pasta salad.  so, needless to say, i didn’t eat until 8:45. not only was i STARVING after that workout, i really hate eating so late; i’m old and like to get into bed by 10pm and i like to let my food digest before i lay horizontally for several hours.  i think from here on out, i’ll be getting my long workout done in the morning, so all i have is quick cardio in the afternoons.

even though i wasn’t happy with how late dinner happened, the rest of the day was pretty good.  i’m starting to get a lot more energy, i turned down a piece of Costco cake after lunch (progress), and i would still rather lift instead of cardio.  i need to find something to replace my edamame snack, because i’m already super bored with it.  any suggestions will be appreciated.

myfitnesspal daily summary:

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sorry if this is all repetitive, and i wont get offended if you stop reading.  this really helps me document everything so i can look back at what’s working and what’s not.

i also realize this is about documenting weight-loss and you haven’t heard anything about that.  i’ll write something up at the end of the cleanse, then at the end of the burn phase.  it’s going to take all i have to make those numbers public.  the only person that knows that number right now is myself and my doctor.  it’s actually giving me anxiety just thinking about it now, so i’ll leave it at that.

Q:  Do you have a set dinner schedule or does it vary from hour to hour?  i am a much happier person if i can get dinner in around 6:30 or 7p.m. anything after that, i start getting cranky and anxious.

day one

hi! so yesterday was the first day of my 24 day challenge.  i’ve been following quite a few fitness people on instagram, lately, one of them being Jess, from TrulyJess.com.  this girl is a total inspiration and i’ve been following her for a good two years now.  she’s someone very relatable, because she does struggle, and she’s not afraid of hiding it.  if she falls off the wagon, she gets right back up and pushes herself that much more.  from there i found Keri and talked to her about my situation.  she was more than supportive and told me about Advocare, which are the same supplements i had recently heard Jess talk about.

i ended up ordering the 24 day challenge for many reasons:

  1. i have nowhere to go but down on the scale.  i will not gain one more pound if it’s the last thing i do.
  2. i felt like i needed something to kick-start my transformation.  i’ve been sluggish, moody, and tired for a while now and i know its because i’m putting junk in my body.
  3. 24 days didn’t seem like a long time.  most challenges are 90 days, maybe 60.. but 24 days seems really attainable.  if what i’m doing at the end of the 24 days isn’t working like i think it should, i’ll reevaluate and go from there.

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this challenge is broken down into two phases, a cleanse phase and a burn phase.  the cleanse phase is 10 days, but you’re still able to eat real food, which i like.  a lot of times, i fail miserably on cleanses because my body feels so deprived, i give up.  the cleanse comes with a morning fiber drink, spark (a coffee replacement), before dinner, and before bed supplements.  the plan suggests you eat 3 clean, balance meals (protein, veggie, complex carb) with 3 snacks in between (more on my eats in a second).  the burn phase is an additional 14 days.  this comes with a meal replacement shake (recommended for mornings), supplements called Metabolic Nutrition System (MNS®) geared toward your goals (mine have serious appetite control), and some more spark.  again, same with the clean eating in the cleanse phase.

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(two 24 day challenges. only one for me.)

i wont go into the daily breakdown now, instead i’ll sum those up in posts when i finish them.  the program also suggests working out to maximize results.  Keri gave me some insight on what she did during her challenge (which she had AMAZING results, btw), so i have mirrored my training after hers, with some of my own tweaks here and there.  she was in the gym for 3 hrs/day.. um yeah. that sounds crazy, right?

well, i guess i’m crazy, too, because i worked out for a total of 2 hrs and 25 mins yesterday; broken into two workouts.  i headed to the gym bright and early yesterday at 5:00 am.  i did an hour of lifting, which included arms + abs, then finished with cardio.  i tried hopping in on a spin class, but my tailbone hasn’t been right since i had surgery last year, so i dropped out during minute 16.  then did a mix of the arc trainer + treadmill with mini-HIIT workouts.  i felt like i got a lot out of the workout and my Puma HRM said i burned 1,062 calories. holla!

i got showered and ready at the gym, headed to work, and made sure to keep on track with my meals.  here is what my day of eats looked like:

4:30 a.m.catalyst + spark pre-workout

7:00 a.m. – fiber drink + protein shake (BSN – SYNTHA 6 Vanilla) post-workout

9:30 a.m. – 1/3 cup of raw almonds

12:00 p.m. – catalyst

12:30 p.m. – 2 grilled chicken tenders + cucumbers & tomatoes (definitely nothing too exciting here.  i had some cucumbers and tomatoes from the garden that needed to be used up, so i just chopped those up for lunch.)

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3:00 p.m. – edamame ( i picked up from Costco)

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insert Just Dance – Just Sweat workout here.  another 335 calories burned.

7:00 p.m.omegaplex + bison stuff peppers & roasted okra tossed in some nutritional yeast.

9:00 p.m. – herbal cleanse tablets + protein shake which consisted of GNC Pro Performance chocolate protein, 1/2 a banana, almond milk, and ice cubes.  i actually really enjoy this protein.  its low in carbs and doesn’t hurt my stomach.  it was nice to end the day with something sweet since i was on an ice cream kick there for awhile.. i’m looking at you sea salt caramel Gelato Haagen-Dazs.  have y’all tried that stuff? if you haven’t, don’t… you wont know what you’re missing 🙂

daily water intake: i lost track, but i’d say somewhere in between 180-200 oz.

thoughts on the products? so far, so good!  i don’t have any complaints.  the spark really helped give me something extra at the gym.  my 4:00 a.m. wake-up came early, but i didn’t really feel tired.  the cleanse portion wasn’t harsh either.  i had heard stories that the fiber was kinda rough, so i just chugged that down.  it definitely wasn’t pleasant.  my stomach got a little ‘girgle-y’ a little before lunch time, but that was the only effects i really saw of the cleanse.

thoughts on my day? all-in-all, i felt like i had a really good day.  i felt like i was dragging at work from 4-5, but i’m going to say it’s because i had already been up so long; i may take some spark tomorrow if i feel like that again..  lunch was lacking in the flavor department, so i know if i’m going to stick to this i’m going to have to get creative.  i’m adding a hard boiled egg to my almond snack for a little extra staying power, because i was pretty hungry going into lunch.  dinner was amazing, i added some salt-free seasoning to the bison + green chiles + organic diced tomatoes and then stuffed some peppers.  it had a lot of flavor going for it.  my favorite part of the day was having something sweet to end with.  i have a feeling those chocolate protein shakes will become a staple.

myfitnesspal daily summary:

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that’s it for day one of my challenge! i’ll be back either tonight or tomorrow with a recap of day two! thanks for stopping by! and if i kept you this long, thanks for reading!  not all posts will be this wordy.. promise!

Q: what’s your after dinner eating habits?  is your night now complete without a sweet treat?  do you brush your teeth right after dinner to curb snacking?  i’m def a sweet-after-dinner kinda girl.  like i said, the ice cream got a little out of hand there for awhile.