hey guys! happy wednesday. i officially hate the term ‘hump day’ because the guy at the front desk of my gym repeats the geico commercial word for word EVERY WEDNESDAY i walk into the gym, usually at 5:00am when i have no patience for anyone. so, needless to say, i no longer enjoy referring to wednesday as hump day. moving on..
this post will probably be mostly words and i apologize for that in advance.
i had my appointment with the surgeon at St. Mary’s hospital at 11:30 friday morning. i got to the office early, filled out my paperwork and waited until the doctor was ready. when i was finally called back, they took my weight, blood pressure, temp, etc and then, i was finally placed in the examining room. the nurse asked what surgery i was considering, and she noted it on my chart.
*i will clarify that when i first saw the nurse practitioner last january, the only surgery we discussed was the lap-band, because that’s the only surgery i was comfortable with. its the least invasive of the 3, and the one i felt most i could do the best with.*
the doctor walked in and wasn’t even sitting down before he told me that i wasn’t a good candidate for the lap-band. stating my BMI was WAY TO HIGH to be considered. he would only give the lap-band to a patient with a BMI of 45 and lower. NEWS FLASH, doc, my BMI is 46 and i’m only 7 pounds away from 44.9, so you’re being a bit dramatic. he went on to say, i would only lose 30 pounds, but i’d never be successful like sleeve and gastric bypass patients. after he was done telling me how bad i was going to fail with the lap-band, he refused to treat me and referred me to his colleague, Dr. Carmody, who i could meet with at 3:00pm that afternoon.
after feeling so defeated, i left the office crying and second guessing everything i was so sure of for the past 13 months. i KNEW this was the right surgery for me. i didn’t want 3/4 of my stomach to be removed. i didn’t want to constantly worry about malnutrition or if i didn’t get the right vitamins in, worry about losing my hair. then i thought, maybe this guy IS right. maybe i’m too fat for the lap-band. maybe the sleeve is the only thing that will help me lose this 130 pounds i want to lose. maybe i’m being naïve in my decision and should just go ahead and get the sleeve.
by the time i got back to the doctor, i wasn’t sure what i want at this point. i was scared, nervous, and confused. when i finally got called back, 50 minutes later, i wasn’t sure what this doctor was going to tell me. luckily, it was everything i NEEDED to hear. after a few minutes of talking to me about my past diet attempts and current eating habits, he thought i was a perfect fit for the lap-band. he said with me being young, active, and a generally clean eater, i would be very successful with the band. it was like i could finally breath again, and hearing that someone believed in me was the boost i needed. i should get a surgery date within the next 2 weeks, where i’ll be put on a pre-op diet consisting of not that much.
i’m SO HAPPY the first doctor turned out to be a dick, because i really feel like my current doctor is the perfect fit. i do understand where the other doctor was coming from, even though i don’t agree with it. lap-band patients tend to lose less weight at a slower pace than sleeve and bypass patients do. these numbers reflect poorly on the surgeon and drop his stats. aftercare cost and time (because of fills) is also a burden on the surgeon has to deal with. not that i think any surgery is an easy decision or the ‘easy way out’, but i think it takes a little more work throughout the whole process to get good result with lap-band. just my opinion though.
im using the band as a tool. i don’t mind working out and i actually love eating clean (with the occasional splurge out to eat), but even with all i did this year to change my diet and exercise, it still wasn’t enough. i don’t want to feel like the only way i can lose weight is by not eating carbs. i want to be able to take a bite of bread, but have that be enough to satisfy me.
i’m going to make this work.. and i cant wait to see how far i take it! then, i can shove my weight loss in the other surgeons face and say F YOU.
that’s enough words for the day. i hope you all have a great day!